The New and Improved Me!!!

I have decided to come clean on my blog and stop pretending that everything is normal with me because it's not!!!! After I had Parker I started getting the 'baby blues.' The doctor said that this was normal and that if they didn't go away to let him know and he would get me some medicine. Well...they didn't go away.....so I went back and they told me that I have Postpartum Depression and they put my on Fluoxetine (or Prozac). I didn't feel anything for the first month or so, but last week I really started feeling better. I wanted to got out of bed, I wanted to give Parker a bubble bath, I wanted to fix dinner.....I was more like my old self. Well, I noticed that I wasn't 100% back to being Lindsey, and so I went back to see my doctor. He asked me some questions and then we decided to up my Prozac. Since then, I really think that I am much better. If you noticed, I haven't been blogging much at all. Well, I attribute that to my lack of interest in things that I would normally enjoy (part if the depression).
I was talking to a family member and he said that you can't just rely on the medicine to make you feel better. He said that I have to do my part to mix me. Well, I got to thinking about it, and I started trying things that I thought would help. I started by making a pot of coffee first thing in the morning to give myself a jump start. It worked!!!! Every morning after my coffee I feel great! I also tried keeping busy. That worked too.......I couldn't think about "things" if I was busy all the time. I also tried diving deep into books and reading as much as I can. This really helped too. I'm not sure how everyone feels about the "Twilight" Series by Stephanie Meyer, but I think of it as my saving grace (aside from my weekly ACTS meetings at church, they have been a huge source of encouragement too). You see, when I read about Edward and Bella, I am taken away to a distant place that keeps my mind free of the 'depression clutter.' I love it!!!! I go to Forks, Washington and I forget about my depressing problems.
Postpartum Depression is a crazy thing. You hear about women hurting their children when they are like that....I was never like that. I would just have times when I didn't want to hold the baby. I am totally over that now. Joey can barely pry the baby out of my hands now!!!!
I just wanted to thank everyone for their prayers!!! I am going to try and get better about posting to both of my blogs. On this particular blog I want to write about what's happening in my life with me........what I'm doing. On the other blog, it will be solely devoted to Parker and my family. My buddy Wendy is my encouragement in that department....Thanks Girl!!!! Also, thank you to my husband for putting up with me and to Becca for being my Rock!
There's more to come.....so stay tuned!